So I have recently read a blog about a girl Allie her name is about how she went 90 days without sex! Holly crap 90 days but her blog reminded me of myself so I thought that I could do this myself. I thought yeah I am not original at all as I am copying her blog, but I think my story is different. So we will start to what has led me to this decision of why I am not going to have sex for 90 days.
I am going to use names I really don't care (just not full names).... I met someone! I thought he was a game changer, he was amazing, smart, funny, and made me feel completely special. He had told me that he had broke up with a long time girlfriend a month previously due to her drug use, but that didn't stop me!!! (Red Flag there dumbass). Instead I went for it we talked for hours, laughed for hours, partied for hours, and cuddled (something I hated to do with anyone). But anyways he was it, he had convinced me to say here in the town I am living instead of moving to where my job is located and just do the 45min commute there like his sister (who by the way is a friend). He stayed with me I stayed with him....then all of a sudden NO CALLS, NO ANSWER! I hate facebook by the way, but I log on to see whats happening in the world and he is back with her, or as most of our mutual friends say they never broke up. Why, I ask myself but really why do I fall for someone who is still with someone? This may think huh? Yes this has happened to me a few other times, but I thought this time was different! Oh well I say and I thought to myself I am not having sex with anyone, really I would like to go for never again but I have a slutting around issue! Yeah I said it I get around, so today as it is May 6th I have gone 11 days without sex, but thats crazy for me. I do have a ton of support as my best friend who is cock blocking all in sight around me sleeps next to me tonight (she is amazing). Most know me for my crazy sexcapades, but I do really want to fall in love! I want that relationship where that is enough, not the late night booty call or random hook up with the guy I have slept with. I want it to be meaningful, and loving and when I see him I want no one else. I thought that was how I felt when I met Spencer, but wow did he prove me wrong! In the end it still hurts and I still cry late at night about the amazing time I had with someone that I thought was a game changer, but in the end it was just a game. I guess I lost, but I can win this challenge (I think)!
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